When we're between life and death

When the death just in your eyes, you will scream "I don't want to die!!!!" While some others, hoping that just take their life away by HIM, and some others rather stay in this world.
I was there. Over the edge, between life and death. For the first time in my life, I screamed, "I'm not ready to die."
No one ready for that thing, I guess. But somehow, sometime, somewhere, WE MUST DIE.

I was on my way to Bandung, when the nightmare happen. I was crash a car that suddenly stopped in front of me. Never dreaming that this accident will come to me. Used to, I'm a roadrider. Touring by motorcycle only by myself. From cities to cities.
Don't have FRIGHT on myself, even I'm a female. Frightness is something that you made by yourself. But from that on, I know what afraid was.

After 4-8 months healing, now, I must face something that I don't even ever think about.
My best friend. He was my drummer, when I was on Senior High. He past away, and I can't see him for the last time.
I remembered our last chat, our last short messages, and now...
He got complication on his lungs and brains. What a 'marvelous' combination for taking someone's life.

Is it for real? Is this true? For someone like him? Always trust his way on GOD's hands. Always pray to GOD. And GOD took his life this fast?!
Even though, I believe in something. If HE took our life so fast, then HE loves us very much.
HE doesn't give us a chance for doing something sinfull and something that HE doesn't like.

You may rest in peace, my friend. And for me? I will take care of my life carefully. GOD give me a second chance for being good...
Hopefully...